Battle Against Myself
Old insecurities.... that I thought I banished.. broke out of their leash.. to come and haunt my dreams. I'm sure I'd murdered them I even buried them.. somewhere deep inside my heart in that corner torn with hurt.. Not even unmarked graves were enough to hide all my pain all the time... So I ran overseas in tears... to get rid of all my fears.. But all of that was for naught... didn't matter how hard I fought... the waves pushed me right back here back into this life full of despair I have tried everything... but nothing is erasing All those insecurities... keeps coming back for me I'd pushed them far away... locked them in a secret safe... But look at what I've become.. a coward afraid to face....her own insecurities.... I can't keep running from all of my biggest fears.. I know it will catch me soon.. Maybe I'll just wait till June I know I'm fighting a loosing battle.... but....thinking of confronting it just makes me rattle... all this is possibly...