Battle Against Myself

Old insecurities....

that I thought I banished..

broke out of their leash..

to come and haunt my dreams.


I'm sure I'd murdered them

I even buried them..

somewhere deep inside my heart

in that corner torn with hurt..


Not even unmarked graves were enough to hide

all my pain all the time...

So I ran overseas in tears...

to get rid of all my fears..


But all of that was for naught... 

didn't matter how hard I fought...

the waves pushed me right back here

back into this life full of despair


I have tried everything...

but nothing is erasing

All those insecurities...

keeps coming back for me


I'd pushed them far away...

locked them in a secret safe...

But look at what I've become..

a coward afraid to face....her own insecurities....


I can't keep running from

all of my biggest fears.. 

I know it will catch me soon..

Maybe I'll just wait till June


I know I'm fighting a loosing battle....

but....thinking of confronting it just makes me rattle...

all this is possibly very fatal..

And with that.....I'm ending this prattle.

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